Not all endings are happy. When it happens to you, this point can be painful. Recently I lost something dear to me, it could have been someone, but you get the point. You invest so much of your life into something or someone and when things don’t work out, when it ends sadly you are left alone to deal with an emotional wave. Sometimes you need someone to comfort you, and in this world you may find that you don’t have the strength to deal with it on your own.
For me personally I’m confused. I don’t know why someone would want to hurt me like they have. To take away something or someone that means so much to you, to serve someone else’s selfish needs seems inhuman.
I’ve often questioned humanity and the people I’ve come in contact with in life. To wives running over husbands and shooting them, to women that drown their children I’ve often asked myself, why? Sadly for me I find the answer is one that frustrates me. Selfishness. I see that always leads to someone having their happiness stolen from them, and ultimately if justice is done, the selfish party ends up with much less than they had before they decided to act on their selfish desire.
The unhappy ending, how many of us can claim to be on track to a happy ending? Is your life where you want it to be? Are your best laid plans coming to pass? For all your plotting and scheming do you know you will be happy in the end? Even if you get what you are after, will that mean you will be happy?
The other day someone sent me an e-mail, wanting to get to know me. I get the usual, “I’m worth it” explanation from them, and in my minds eye I see another person that believes they are worth it because they have their own agenda. Too few of us “are worth it” and the rest of us are just hoping to be happy with what we got.
I think I want someone that is just trying to be happy with what they have because then they won’t be looking past me for their next best thing.
Is your heart that of a cold ambition or at peace knowing everyday can’t be a
This person answered: I definitely do NOT have a heart of cold ambition. I have come to be at peace with the fact that every day will not have a
Sounds like a great answer to me, but you know. I knew someone like this 9 years ago that gave me that same answer and now we are divorced without reason.
Worse yet, we share a child and she wants no part of getting along for the sake of the child. Left with no other choice, I go on with my children coping with the void and making the best of what came of all my good works.
Even there I found that despite all I did right, and her pointless complaints that somehow I was part of “her” self manufactured problems, I could not do enough to keep our life on a path to a mutual happy ending. She left to make herself happy and I’m left to raise two boys that don’t understand why their mother wanted more than she already had. And no, I don’t have all the answers. I’m told I’m coping quite well considering all I’m going through and I know I am.
But just the other day someone came into my life and made more trouble for me than I deserved. It seems that minding your own business is NEVER enough. Yet another lesson I’ve had to learn in life. And sure enough once again I have to put another level of insulation up in my life to make sure the wrong people don’t penetrate my private space.
Keeping this blog is tough. It seems when I talk about something innocent enough as managing a little league team, I’m putting myself out there for those that just want to make trouble.
So here again I must close off another part of my life dear reader. My blog involves so little of what I do and am about. In some ways it has served me well to keep certain people at bay and keep meddling minds out of my personal life.
You see, not everything you read here is as what it seems.
So take this lesson from me, not every ending is happy. Good things happen for bad people, and bad things happen to good people. Bad things happen to good people because we expect others to be like us, good. But those bad people prey on us.
Lately I feel like I have to be lucky all the time in protecting my interests and family. Because I can’t watch EVERYTHING I do. I have a mind of who took the effort to destroy my happiness most recently and once again I put it in Gods hands, because I can’t make myself like those that would destroy me.
The hard part is dealing with loss. When you start something that should make you happy and someone steals it from you, how do you keep going? What do you go on to? Where do you go from there? All you can do is get up and get back in the human race again.
Because the day you quit, is the day you fail. Perhaps my unhappy ending is not what it seems. Perhaps this is not the ending yet, and I can still find my way to happiness. I will never know if I don’t try.
Let my lesson today serve you too. Never quit. Never quit. Please, never quit.
The end.
