I know where I’ve been and don’t want to go back

But my past follows behind on an inward relentless, incessant attack

The past stayed present, went on for years

In sight of my future trading innocence for wisdom

The past stayed present, it went on for years

My past lives with me can I live without fear?

 

Lost so much, gained little back

An awful price, for the faith that I lacked

Laden load ...of misery

Laden with efforts, that counted on me

So time encompassed a captured life

Looking but finding no answer in sight

 

A clever voice waited

Counted one my destiny

The on thing needed was a friend

Deception preyed on that need in the end

Here I am now waiting on you

And my mind is mine once again

This is not praise

No liberal view

Paths of misery

Are what I am testimony to

 

This courage in wisdom

Is Gods gift of time

 

                        April 14-15 1991